Needing Additional Coping Skills.

Most of us start off on this adoption path not really knowing the time line that is in front of us or all that will be required.
One year and a week ago, we began our travels towards two little lives that we loved even before we knew they were ours. We began to pray for them, hope for them, discover more about them and where they might come from. We filled out paperwork, attended classes, met with many people and traveled hundreds of miles just to let people know how sure we were that they were wanted and would be truly cared for and loved in our home.
We asked many questions, some common, others not, but all of them teaching us more and more about what our path would hold.
It wasn't until we were put on the referral waiting list that I finally asked which part of the process was the hardest. Up until that point, I had been too busy with paperwork and government processing to begin to think of what the wait would hold. The answer I was told over and over was that the wait to travel would be the most painful. Little did I know, when I asked that simple question, how true the answer would be.
If I am honest, it has been the hardest 3 months, one week, and two days I have ever had to wait through. At first it felt like I was just in labor for a REALLY long time. Now, after another month has passed, it feels more like I gave birth on the day we received the referral for the girls and I have been in angst, waiting to see my children ever since. There have been words of encouragement and smiling faces as we have continued to wait, but I still wait- staring at the wall- knowing that relief will only come when those little girls are in my arms.
Needless to say, the coping skills I thought I had, have been greatly challenged. It has come to this....




This morning.... five pounds later, I started yoga again!