Ok- so I think I'm in total denial. I was up at the crack of dawn this morning- literally. I even stayed up late last night thinking that maybe I could kick myself into a normal sleep pattern. However, when I rolled over in bed this morning it was only four hours after I had fallen asleep. I tossed and turned longer than usual trying to get myself back to sleep, but completely failed. My mind started working and I just couldn't shut it off. I tried counting sheep, but it didn't work out. Who the came up with sheep counting anyway?
What to do today..... the options are endless, but my motivation is nil. Maybe I'll just take the dog to the park, soak up some sun and read a good book, trying not to let my mind wander into all the unknowns. Sometimes life is just too weird and a bit overwhelming. It feels good to get away from it and sink into a good imaginary tale sometimes. Who knows, maybe I'll start writing a book (Jenny)!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
Leaving
I knew when I started this job that police work was tough. I knew there was a lot to it and I thought I had a grasp of what it meant to dispatch and be family to people you worked with. I was soooooo wrong.
In life there are relationships that come into your heart so slowly, so quietly that you don't realize the impact they have until crisis hits. Other relationships are built in an instant, in a single "shots fired" or "11-99". There are ties that bind far stronger than many others that have taken years of work to build up, and those ties are not easily broken.
The team of women in this department is made up of strong, determined, protective and caring individuals that have taught me so much. Not only have they been a constant resource on the job, but they have provided support, love and encouragement throughout the whole process of preparing for med school, military life, and the adoption. They are women I will remain close to for a lifetime and women that I hope to resemble in so many ways.
The "boys" are brothers I didn't know I had. There are some that have a nose for trouble and others that wait for the trouble to come to them, but they all want our world to be better. They all love the work, the humor that surrounds it, and the opportunity to make a differnece. They would give their lives for me, for any one of us. Those that I cherish most, I will carry in my heart forever. They will always be brothers and they will always be friends.
I walk away from this job a better person for having worked it. There are memories of voices I will never forget (everyone in law enforcement has those calls). Memories that I will carry with me always. Some sad, some terrifying, others hilarious. Most important are the memories of the people that helped pull me through those calls. The people that rolled their eyes with me, laughed with me, and cried with me.
I have done some pretty embarrassing things- totally accidental,like singing random songs of "la,la,la...." over the radio or mistaking VolvO's for Volv&%*$ (something else I am not going to type, but yes, that's it- I know- SOOOOO humiliating). I have barely taken a breath and fumbled over words trying to get "choking baby" calls out fast enough and I have sat in silence waiting for a code-4 from my officer's when I know they are in trouble.
Through it all, I have come to appreciate this work and the men and women in it. I would do it all again, a million times over, just to have met the people I now know to be friends.
Thank for the ride.
In life there are relationships that come into your heart so slowly, so quietly that you don't realize the impact they have until crisis hits. Other relationships are built in an instant, in a single "shots fired" or "11-99". There are ties that bind far stronger than many others that have taken years of work to build up, and those ties are not easily broken.
The team of women in this department is made up of strong, determined, protective and caring individuals that have taught me so much. Not only have they been a constant resource on the job, but they have provided support, love and encouragement throughout the whole process of preparing for med school, military life, and the adoption. They are women I will remain close to for a lifetime and women that I hope to resemble in so many ways.
The "boys" are brothers I didn't know I had. There are some that have a nose for trouble and others that wait for the trouble to come to them, but they all want our world to be better. They all love the work, the humor that surrounds it, and the opportunity to make a differnece. They would give their lives for me, for any one of us. Those that I cherish most, I will carry in my heart forever. They will always be brothers and they will always be friends.
I walk away from this job a better person for having worked it. There are memories of voices I will never forget (everyone in law enforcement has those calls). Memories that I will carry with me always. Some sad, some terrifying, others hilarious. Most important are the memories of the people that helped pull me through those calls. The people that rolled their eyes with me, laughed with me, and cried with me.
I have done some pretty embarrassing things- totally accidental,like singing random songs of "la,la,la...." over the radio or mistaking VolvO's for Volv&%*$ (something else I am not going to type, but yes, that's it- I know- SOOOOO humiliating). I have barely taken a breath and fumbled over words trying to get "choking baby" calls out fast enough and I have sat in silence waiting for a code-4 from my officer's when I know they are in trouble.
Through it all, I have come to appreciate this work and the men and women in it. I would do it all again, a million times over, just to have met the people I now know to be friends.
Thank for the ride.
Congratulations!
Congratulations to the lovely little maker of this blog: Beth. Today was the last day of her employment at the Police Department as a dispatcher, 911 operator and all around wonderful person. In a place that delicately balances fun and craziness she was a breath of fresh air. I love you Beth. Your hubby.
Friday, May 9, 2008
A Week of Referrals!
The week isn't even over and we have jumped up 5 spots on the "unofficial" list!
A huge congratulations to Dawn and her family! They have been waiting over a year to receive their referral of two little girls! The call came in today and Dawn was good enough to share it with our little forum family. There has been such a support built up between many of us and it is so much fun to share in the joy of referrals with other families.
Just fun news I had to share!
A huge congratulations to Dawn and her family! They have been waiting over a year to receive their referral of two little girls! The call came in today and Dawn was good enough to share it with our little forum family. There has been such a support built up between many of us and it is so much fun to share in the joy of referrals with other families.
Just fun news I had to share!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Stunned.
I was in Sears today looking at glasses when my cell phone rang. My mother stood beside me and watched, first with concern, then with curiosity as I heard my husband read a letter that we received in the mail today. I sit here with goosebumps as I write this(I've had them since I picked up that call), tears streaming down my face in amazement.
All my mother heard was a gasp, and then she saw the tears as they began to fall. The poor sales lady in Sears must have thought I was loosing my mind. I grabbed my mothers shoulder (after the big gasp), smiled to reassure her and proceeded to run out of the building while Garrett finished the letter! Mom walked out to meet me and we shared the news with her (more tears and big hug here).
Shaohannah's Hope (see right hand column) miraculously choose our family to be the recipient of a grant that has covered the remaining balance owed to our adoption agency- I mean down to the penny!!!
There are moments in life when everything comes together in such a way that one is left with undeniable certainty that God is completely aware of who we are and exactly what what we need. In those moments we can truly understand what it means to be in awe, defined even more by a stunned expression and joyful tears. I was left without words for a long while, completely amazed by the miracle of this gift.
Thank you for the prayers family and friends.... God never ceases to blow my socks right off!
All my mother heard was a gasp, and then she saw the tears as they began to fall. The poor sales lady in Sears must have thought I was loosing my mind. I grabbed my mothers shoulder (after the big gasp), smiled to reassure her and proceeded to run out of the building while Garrett finished the letter! Mom walked out to meet me and we shared the news with her (more tears and big hug here).
Shaohannah's Hope (see right hand column) miraculously choose our family to be the recipient of a grant that has covered the remaining balance owed to our adoption agency- I mean down to the penny!!!
There are moments in life when everything comes together in such a way that one is left with undeniable certainty that God is completely aware of who we are and exactly what what we need. In those moments we can truly understand what it means to be in awe, defined even more by a stunned expression and joyful tears. I was left without words for a long while, completely amazed by the miracle of this gift.
Thank you for the prayers family and friends.... God never ceases to blow my socks right off!
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